You know last week in the middle of all the puking and diarrhoea, I felt anything but blessed.
Isn't it funny how something as "small" as sleepless nights and sickness can make us lose sight of the blessings?
OK. Not funny. More like annoying. Or crazy.
Because the whole time I was adrift on the tide of vomitousness, I still had a roof over my head (even though it felt like the walls were closing in), food on the table (for those who were well enough to eat), friends and family who care (even though most would prefer to steer clear of the germs, I was not alone because of technology).
I also actually have kids to be sick in the first place. Sometimes I forget what a miracle that is, in itself.
In the midst of complaining and nagging about dirty clothes strewn over the floor and sticky crumbs littering every surface, I can totally lose sight of the blessing of children.
Yesterday I went to see the movie "Mother and Child" with my friend Meg. It was very decadent, we agreed, to go to a movie during the day. But we justified it in our minds one way or another (yet another blessing) and off we went.
I hadn't heard anything about the movie and I had no expectations so I wasn't disappointed (neither was I blown away) but one particular scene was very moving. A young woman who had been desperate for children and unable to conceive had arranged an adoption... but {spoiler alert... skim this if you plan to see it} at the last minute the teenage mother changed her mind. The grief and pain was heart wrenching and palpable.
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And yet here I am with three children I could conceive and carry naturally. Three crazy noisy outrageous fun-loving clown children. I am truly blessed, and should never take that for granted.
I am also blessed with a husband. Yes, that is a blessing I shouldn't take for granted either. I waited many long lonely years for him.
And he's one of the good ones. He is loving kind and generous, a good father. Annoying at times. Bossy at times. But a genuine goodhearted man who always wants to give his best. I am blessed to have him.
Then there's the blessing of good health.
Ironic since I had a lingering head cold and sinusitis for four weeks followed by a week of puking. Good health?
YES. Nobody is dying. I have not been diagnosed with anything terminal or scary, and neither have my children. Backaches, headaches, colds and tummy bugs, a bit of gluten intolerance and depression thrown in?
Small potatoes. We have Friends who are facing scary illnesses, in themselves and their kids. So my minor ailments hardly rate a blip. I am counting my blessings and thankful for relatively good health.
I don't want to take that for granted; I want to maximise the time we have together (mum and dad are coming to Auckland for the weekend. They are hoping to move here. Oh I would be the most blessed person to have them living close!)
We are blessed with enough for ourselves and some left over to be generous with. That is a blessing enjoyed by few in this world.
We are able to travel. I love to travel. It's a passion of mine and a dream come true. I am so blessed!
I have friends. Great friends. True Friends. Friends who encourage me, who help me out, who are honest with me. Friends who I can laugh and be myself with: what better than coffee or movies with a good friend or two? I am so blessed.
We have a home that we own. A beautiful home. The home of my dreams really, though it is no mansion.
I can create. I can see. I can hear. My legs work (though they may not be the size I'd wish).
I am blessed to live in a country where I am free. Free to walk around openly as a woman. Free to be myself. Free to follow my faith openly. Free to speak my mind. Free to raise my children in accordance with my conscience. Free from oppression.
Oh, our government is far from perfect, but really? Compared to some places?? We are blessed. We live in Paradise, really.
I am blessed with a faith that is real to me. A hard-won sought-after faith tried-by-fire. Not handed to me on a plate by the older generations. Sifted and sorted, questioned and clung to. My faith in a Real and Living God has seen me through my darkest hours. I have Hope. I have Purpose. I am truly blessed.
So many blessings. How can I list them all?
Really, when I stop to count my blessings the list could go on and on. I can focus on the "weeds" or the "flowers". Guess which one will make me feel happier?
I am truly a blessed person. In sickness or in health, still blessed.
Having a good day or a crappy one. Still blessed.
What are the blessings in your life, when you stop to think about them??
